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Whatever you will have to say, I will not judge you. I remember what you were like after that game.

What I was like...?

You kept yourself as far away as everyone as possible. It was like approaching a stray animal—or so I thought.

[oh look it's the park, leading him to a bench and sitting down]

Edited 2019-11-25 13:20 (UTC)

...You know, your observation skills are definitely something.

[ok bench sitting time, GOOD THING NO ONE IS HERE PROBABLY]

Anyone could have seen it.

[PROBABLY NOT A SOUL IN SIGHT

reaching into Jyanta's back and pulling out a tin of cookies—those little buttery ones with the strawberry jam center, and holds the whole thing out towards him]

...I feel like I’m being picked on...

[why is he so easy to reeeeead, takes a cookie tho]

I was possessed by those ghost things too, ya know.

[pulling the tin back onto her lap]

Did you kill someone?

[From the expression on his face, you can tell he wasn’t prepared for that yet. He doesn’t say anything, but he tightens up his fists hard enough to crush the cookie in his hand.

He’s also pointedly NOT LOOKING at her.]

[scans him, glancing from his expression to his hand. yeah, this feels Bad]

...I went too far too fast. But, that is it, is it not.

[...]

Yeah.

[looks ahead at the park as she sits in silence, giving him a moment or two to see if he says anything else]

[It's pretty awkward! But it doesn't really change. And he does eventually speak up again though it sounds more like he's trying to say anything at all]

...At the time, I didn't even feel bad. It felt so natural and easy, I didn't even have to think twice about it.

It was the spirit that made you into that kind of person. It used you... because you feel bad now, right?

I don't know.

You are still Wildfire to me—no matter what you have done.

...but Silence thinks that what matters to you right now is not what others think of you, but how you currently feel about yourself?

Edited 2019-11-26 18:22 (UTC)

[Suddenly standing up, shouting.]

Of course it matters to me what others think!! If I screw up, they're gonna aim harder to hurt us if our reputation is as bad as they said it is!!

And how am I going to feel bad about myself when I'm the one who killed somebody?!

[oh.

wait.

what is he doing?]

[Sits back down, looking ashamed, and running a hand through his hair.]

...sorry, Silencchi. It's not like it's your fault, I don't know why I'm yelling at you. You were there, too. You also probably went through hell.

Edited 2019-11-27 02:20 (UTC)

[that outburst surprises her, drawing a small flinch—but she turns herself towards him to face him more]

No—do not apologize. I once told you not force yourself to hold your feelings back. You are enduring so much...

Compared to everyone else though? Who's gone through war or torture or whatever it is and has to re-live all of it? Right now, I'm just a normal teenager who plays basketball. I can't imagine I have that sort of backstory.

It does not matter! Do not compare your experiences to anyone else's, for your experiences are your own, and your pain cannot be measured against another person's pain. If you hurt, you hurt. If you are upset, you are upset!

In fact, your background is so different that... I am incredibly sympathetic. You had a family, and a hobby, and a "normal" life...

You were the one who was pulled from that idealistic life and submitted to a painful world like this.

...

. . .

[ gives her an awkward smile, but it is a kind one.]

Silencchi is really showcasing her kindness today. I said it before, but I really mean it this time. You're really cool.

[!?!?]

Where did that come from? I, I am not. I... I have not been following my own advice lately, which is not "cool."

I’m just sitting here moping and yelling at you, and instead of getting mad at me, you’re giving me a cool senpai-like peptalk.

You’re definitely cool though. You can ride a motorbike, you help newbies out, you make cool parties for your friends, and you try to cheer people up. You don’t even judge people for doing awful things when you probably should.

...you should follow your own advice though.

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