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inner headstuff

this is me playercesting so i don't lose track of conversations i used to handwave then forget

[sometime after this memory, time for this girl to reach out to her bodybuddy]

Song—how are you?

I'm okay, just confused...?

[guess who still doesn't remember the memory Yvette helped her forget]

Why was I so angry? I was so angry! Are we sure these are our memories?!

They are our memories.

But I was so mean!?

She behaves differently from you, so do not be bothered by that. You two are different because you lack the experiences she has... but you have your own experiences as well.

...how isn't that the same for what you saw about yourself? Why are you allowed to be upset?

I am not upset!

[t-taking it down a notch, no yelling in the head chamber]

Um... what Silence remembered about herself were the facts. My existence is temporary. I am meant to disappear, so...

WAIT, WAIT, WAIT!!

S-so, you could disappear? Even here? As in this place?

...

[tucks her head against her knees]

I don't know.

[oh no if she disappears i'll be alone!!]

[i'll be... alone?]

[i won't have to share MY body, i won't have to forfeit control so she can do something scary, or request control just to talk to someone or go to the cafe, i can do what i want with my own time

when i meet people they can stop confusing me for silence, when i meet people i can land the first impression, i can start experiencing more things for myself

people will stop seeing me as a two-for-one special, i'll get to make my own decisions, i will get to make choices all on my own for myself and only myself

my thoughts in this head would be mine and mine alone and i wont have to look at someone with my face

i'll have my own identity,]

Edited 2019-07-28 18:40 (UTC)